Chaos...and so much to say

So much is going on...

I've been feeling quite sick lately and it can be one of two things. Either I'm just way sick from my personal trainer working me so hard or I'm pregnant. It's more than likely due to me working my abs so hard. It's so sad that I hurt way bad when I cough, laugh and just plain move. It's pathetic I know...but I guess worth it in the end. If I want to be fit for when I get pregnant, that I have to go through pain right now.

For the last two days I've been in bed just watching all my shows like "A Wedding Story" and "A Baby Story". It's fun to see all of the cute babes even though it just makes me more baby hungry. I just am so excited to have a mini me. I'm just so stoked that Bryan is totally onboard with us starting a family now. Now is the perfect time or so it feels like.

I started my new job a couple of weeks ago. It's new, exciting, stressful, chaotic...and I'm not so sure about it. My official role is Event Manager which means I do everything. I do wedding coordinating during the day, I make sure the events go smooth, I make sure the servers are doing their job, I hire, schedule and train the servers. pretty much I'm the only one with wedding experience at work so they rely on me heavily which is quite stressful. I'll definitely stick with it for now, but I want to be a mom more than anything...even more than having my own reception center. Strange eh?

I can't believe I have so much to say. My hubby always tells me that I keep things in until they get to where I just can't keep it in any longer and I seem to lash out. He says I get this from my family and it made me really want to change that. I don't know why my family does this but now it makes sense why I do it. I never knew if my parents had financial issues or problems with each other cause they never showed it to us kids. I always thought they had the most absolute perfect marriage & now that I'm older, my mom has shared a few of their hardships with me. I really did think marriage would be easy based on what I saw & now I really now hard it is.

So my new goal besides doing well at my job & getting pregnant is to be able to express my feelings to my husband & not keep them bottled in. I know this will improve our relationship so much & will help me in more ways than I can imagine.

Another year has come and gone

Yikes... it's 2006 already! Where has the last year gone?

I'm just glad 2005 is over because 2006 will be an awesome year. Especially now that I'm working where I want and doing what I love! Of course no job is perfect, and this isn't my own place, but its as close as I'll get for a little while.

I'm so looking forward to accomplishing many goals this next year...

Working Out with my husband, getting out of some financial debt, supporting my hubby while he goes to school, finishing my Interior Design course, doing more scrapbooking, spending more time with family & friends, getting a house... and the last MAYBE, MAYBE thing is to start having kids. We'll see how that works out.

Some things to figure out...

Well we just renewed our lease so I guess we are staying in our place for another year. I'm still so leary about the whole thing, asking myself the following questions... should we have signed a shorter lease, should we have looked for a different place, am I making the right decision? I guess that's my biggest question lately... am I making the right decision? The one decision I know that is right is marrying Bryan but everything else is so hard to decide on. I'm always trying to make sure that I'm making the right decisions for both of us that won't screw us up in the long run. I guess that's why we get to be here on earth... to experience making decisions whether they be right or wrong. I just hate making the wrong ones!

My silly husband!

One of the best things in life is my silly husband! He really is the silliest boy ever! He is always giving some silly face and making me laugh! Man do I love this boy!

itchy, itchy, itchy!!!

Man do I hate doctors. I have had to go there so many times for what appears to be an allergic reaction. Of course, they don't know for sure. My eyes have been red, puffy and swollen and my neck and rest of my body won't stop itching! It's like having chicken pox all over again! I have been so miserable with this and can't wait till we can figure out what is wrong with me. I'm going to go to an allergy doctor and hopefully he can tell me what I'm allergic to!

I've been so busy at work that I don't get time to update my blog let alone sit at a desk. Today all my nesters are gone so I can do something now and its super duper quiet!